Isolation from the LOW IQ

If it seems like people are getting dumber, it's true.

But, it's not their fault.  Subliminal messages, over-medication, toxic food, and intentionally-polluted water are the things that are causing the IQ's of the common public stumble to all-time lows.  Street-sense has turned into thug-life, and that's not all that bright because the thugs are actually believing that the videos are real.  Not thinking that the jet, the Bento, and the 'hoes' are all rented.  And that ice is rented too...believe that.  Believe that most artists are slaves and puppets for their labels.  

You can't tell anyone about how bad chemical fertilizer is, or how pesticides and genetically modified foods are terrible for you.  The lady on the supermarket commercial told me that by shopping there I was making the best decision for my family...and that's the truth!  Little Jimmy has ADD, ADHD, etcetcetc....and fluoride is good for you!  That's why 'they' keep putting it in the water.  You tell these people the truth (and it is the truth) they roll their eyes or any other 'you're crazy' reaction and tell you that 'you're crazy' and maybe even that you believe in some conspiracy theory.  That's what my son's (last) pediatrician said.  

I've already written about the Doctors.  Most are in the same circle as the rest, and may not even be aware of it because of their 'elite' conditioning.

So, about those IQ's.  Don't expect society to grow at the rate at which we should be progressing, together, as a people.  Certain pockets of people are where they need to be, and we help each other out, so we tend to be leaps and bounds beyond the majority who watch BET, MTV and VH1 and believe it all.  They watch the news, and think that it's all there is.  They watch for which celeb is having which baby and how great their lives are (must be?).  Not thinking about the unions some of these people have with 'who'.  

But, the antagonist of this all is....what to do when they keep getting in your way? VERY ANNOYING!  It's hard to tolerate people for extended amounts of time.  You collapse, and then you recover and get up and then it's the same, over and over.  Just now in the cafe', another stuck-up, siddidy Atl bitch.  Sorry.  But she was.  They keep getting in my way!  On the way to work, MARTA (the subway system) is FULL of them.  And their woman-hungry, nasty dudes.  Always in the way.  Staring, commenting. It gets annoying.  Day after day.  And the airport~ FULL of them.  That's all who gets hired.  Almost.  At my job, not like that at all b/c of a massive amount of qualifications and training and standard.  But most places, hood-life.  All the way.  Most have some of the worst attitudes I've ever seen.  Some of my coworkers have brought it up before. The theory is that they (the airport) hire people from around the area that the airport is in because there's a better chance that they'll make it to work vs someone who lives further away.  

My coworkers (all races now, believe that) have had the same experiences I do.  I talk to a couple of how they handle it.  One dude, righteous bro, said, that you have to relate to them and try to understand.  My husband says the same thing.  You have to try to understand where they're coming from, and that most have never seen anything else.  But I'm tired of trying to relate.  This issue was a HUGE reason that I moved from Atlanta.  I think the whole hood-life culture is outdated and holding communities back.  But that's another article.  Maybe I've even already written it.  I don't even remember.

But, so.  How to isolate from this?  An anti-climatic note I've written today, and I'm sorry.  I guess I'm asking for help.  For an opinion that'll help me, because trying to relate only helps me for a short period of time.  Stuck up heads of 36-40" weave, rolling their eyes and popping their gum (literally, I have to move trains a LOT because of this) and talking SO LOUD always seems to get to me.  I heard a girl yell the other day, "Naw, I ain't movin' trains...we fought TOO HARD to make it from the back." But didn't we fight too hard to have you mess it up with your friends who are making my ears ring?  Someone help me out.  

Can't Make a Horse Drink.

I saw a post on a pregnancy-type site that I frequent, a signature that went along with someone's post. 'I have a black president with bronze boobies' The bronze boobies are about how long she's been breast feeding. She was black, I'm guessing full-black, not mixed with anything I suppose.

It's something that people do. Not very accurate, very slave-like. One drop rule stuff. Even though President Obama is at least one-half something totally not black. Same as what they do with Halle Berry, a full 50% not black.  Bob Marley...50% black Jamaican, 50% white. Not to denounce, but just be accurate. And not to forget, and to not be insulting to this other full half of to-be-rightfully-claimed heritage.

I know about it. I've had people try to tell me what I am my whole life. Trying to force me into their little one-drop world. And I'm like, ' what about this whoooooole, huge part, this huge half of my family over here? Slave times are over right? I don't have to count as part of massah's property stat anymore,right?'

When I saw that woman's signature, I wanted to make a completely off-subject post, just on her innaccuracy.

Just like I always want to correct and re-educate people. Not to agree with me, but just to get things right. Basically right, fundamentally correct. But you can't force people out of ignorance.

Even in my ignorance, in recent and past times, I had to get myself out.  Through my own research and my own observations. Even when truths were given, bluntly and blatently. I still had to make sure I believed, not just accepted.

I want the world to be accurate, but I've let go of trying to convince. I've re-dedicated my energy towards those who are, not those who accept being lost.

It's an Anal Douche Kind of World...

Catchy title huh? Yeah, some would say, but I wasn't going for catchy...see,i needed something douchey, but not the kind of douche that was just for the ladies.something that could apply to everyone,...and, every thing.

See, because it is true, it is a (an anal douche) douchey kind of world. Kids are born innocently to supreme-loser parents, maybe even the same nut sack attack,smelly taintmeat upperlip sukka that tries to run me and my kid off the highway in his  tinypenis truck.

Everyone is turning into a bitch. Well, not everyone, but in general, everyone is. Everyone is getting worse, more annoying...more douchey. And i'm getting more tired, so my fuse is short despite me trying to stay zen & ghandiji-like.

Yeah,i'm still trying to be that light, that change you wanna see, but i'm beginning to not give a f.  I'm beginning to wanna start slappin db's (douche bags) in the nuts then smear the stink across their faces.

But we all still gotta be cool. despite our shady political system, despite the genocide of the natives. Through it all we have to save ourselves, and the other few who are left from anal douchedom.

they all can still suck it though.

maybe it's our environment...

this past thanksgiving made me think a little more about a few things that were on my mind about atlanta and some of the destroyed communities within it.  lately, i've been seeing the beauty in atlanta, and proud of the progress that i've been seeing.  transgender hires in my local stores, the film industry making more projects here and the effect that i think it has on our city...people being very stylish too!  very nice to see...

so, everyone knows how i feel about some of the black communities here in atlanta.  i've spoken to a few people, mainly older, (60+) black people from the north.  and they have seen the same thing, but since they feel that they have earned their keeps on this planet, they're not worried about being pc the way i am.  sometimes it's hard to talk about a certain demographic without seeming racist.  but in this case, it's definitely the truth.  

it's not a black thing, it's a black thing, for a very certain few, here in atlanta.  i heard a girl calling her 5 month old 'nigger' like a million times...i was saddened.  maybe it's not such a big deal, but i see that it is.  this is paired up with a million mates of thinking white people are the ones with money, or just jewish people are good with it.  stuff like that.  basically, this select people have the ongoing trait that thinks, 'that can never be me'.  except for being a rapper...or the 'pretty' girl, which equals to like 15lbs of remy brazilian sewed into her head, with a TON of 'mac' makeup and clothes like destiny's child when b's mom was still making the clothes.  and along with alllll that, being VERY bitchy to other women.  i think it's some competition thing.

anyways.  i was thinking.  ok, slavery.  i think about it any time i see black people in desolation here in the atl.  but think about the lonnnnng time that black/brown/colored...basically non-white people were treated here in the deep south.  segregation just happened 1 generation ago.  there are people you'll meet still who's immediate family were slaves.

and slaves were treated like shit.  don't wanna cuss, but this case calls for it.  they were ragged and beaten, told they were good for nothing, and told they were ugly.  while getting raped and abused by everyone around them, except for in a few small, select cases where the plantation owner was a 'good guy' and didn't beat (as badly?) as his neighbors. 

things here in atlanta are still very segregated, to me.  sometimes you see a black person who's not been removed from their environment very much in a totally new situation, and it's like a fish out of water.  like they're in shock. 

that could be me!  i could TOTALLY see myself saying, 'F that!  i'm NOT going over to ANYONE who doesn't look like me'...if i was treated like crap for generationsssssss, like a LONG time.  like 200 years of crap.  

and, it's not so far removed.  remember that.  i went to school in the DEEP south...at ga southern.  in statesboro.  the last place in georgia (or was it the south?) to segregate.  i graduated in 2003.  there are still TONS (believe me, TONS) of confederate flags....everywhere!  shoot, right by my house NOW in atalanta, the main street that the GSP and another cop entity is on is CONFEDERATE AVE.  hmm.  not a coincidence.  but back to my school.  i was working, at autozone, and an olllld white man, like 80 came to the register i was checking people out at and he said to me, 'you're just the prettiest colored girl i've ever seen' i didn't even get offended.  

in highschool...in a very suburbia part of the outskirts of atlanta, one of my teammates said something similar...'you're the prettiest black girl i've seen.'  kinda over being called black when i'm not full black, that one drop shit needs to go...but whateves.  i got it.  i was still 'them'

i get it.  i'll always be them.  but them are also the native americans.  my mothers father was part native american, and my fathers grandmother was 100%.  which leads me into why i was thinking about things like this one.  a big slap in the face.  an intentional slap.  native american heritage month is the same month that this 'let's celebrate genocide day' is on.  and people still don't recognize that.  

it all leads me to say eff it.  i'm not here to educate people, but yet i still want to.  go fig.  

----awareness....

awareness is power.  

even if you don't believe in the conspiracy, or that anything is 'wrong', knowing what the truth is is what the point is.  

i'm not going to get into what i believe in, at least not too deeply.  i'll graze the surface, and if you want, you can start your own research...and i guarantee that it'll lead to a LOT, but whatever, it can always be all a lie. i don't think it is, but i'm not interested in convincing ANYONE.  believe me ;o)  i'm definitely not.  

and...my point is--->everything that's aired, can all be a lie. it's very possible, and highly likely.  

a tad of the TRUTH.  the truth is: (this is just a PINPOINT amount of what's really going on out there...very basic knowledge indeed, believe me...lol)

A: the people who own the networks also own almost all of the media outlets...radio, newspapers and magazines. 

B: most of the people who own these things are also VERY politically empowered.  

C: 90% of the FDA are politicians

D: most of these politicians also own companies that are DIRECTLY involved or effected by the dealings in and around the FDA.

E: these people are NOT going to do things that benefit you if it can benefit them instead.  don't take it personally, it's the result of CAPITALISM.  which isn't entirely bad, but you have to not see these people as people, but as the MACHINE which makes the best BUSINESS decisions for ITSELF.  machines do not have hearts.

....this is only one TRUTH stream of consciousness...it's not a conspiracy theory, it's real, researchable, verifiable truth. 

and only a part of a HUGE, worldwide, international, multi-faceted network.  

awareness is power.  if you know what's happening, and even more about the details of it, you can enable yourself to make decisions that will protect you, keep you healthier, and more informed about what's really going on when a building gets run into with a plane or some 'war' is started.  

you can think about what's really in the water.  fluoride isn't good for you.  they tell you, if you swallow what's more than in toothpaste, call the CDC. but there's that and more in 8oz of most municipal water.  that's the truth.  i know here in my city, there have been massive petitions against them adding SO MUCH fluoride in the water. ha, they haven't stopped.  my pedi told is it was a good thing...i like him, but i don't agree with is fundamental POV. i had already looked up what research has proven about fluoride and what it hasn't.

but my doctor told me so!  your doctor may have the purest intentions, or not.  same with your pediatrician, but remember.  they went to school for YEARS within the educational systems that are the ones that don't teach (all of) the truth.  they're still teaching the the 'new settlers/pilgrims' were friends to the native americans.  what about those blankets?  oh, we forgot.  whatever...get out of here.  btw, do you really think that the edu that the presidents got, let's say, in primary/middle/highschool is the same one that you and i got?  

but remember, your doctor was convinced of the things that they want you to believe.  i'm not trying to get too conspiracy style right now, but just keep in mind that you and your doctor may have very different opinions, and what they tell you is not necessarily what you need to do.  you can take their advice, but just remember what they're telling you may not be accurate, or what you feel in your heart.  but it sure is difficult to have the confidence to go against a doctor.  don't worry, it gets easier with time. and when you know the truth.

but!  your doctor may be AWESOME!  i'm not here to bash anyone, including doctors.  they may have gone to a really progressive open-intelligence kind of school.  or maybe they went directly through the system, but they may have with a really strong mind that knew what the deal was and with their own, very educated, opinion.  VERY POSSIBLE!  and definitely a keeper :o)

ps...refusal of awareness and just 'taking it' is ignorance.  and usually is a direct contribution to the things that take us down as a society.  

you're pissed that you have poor living conditions, no money, dirty water and cities?  no jobs, poor schools for your kids?  it's because you're accepting the reaming of your ass.  and taking what the news and magazine covers (even people...lol) as the truth, and soaking in the distraction. i watch housewives and jersey shore, but i don't wake up wanting to be them or wondering what they're doing...or even believing that it's not scripted.

i've lived in LA, getting casted for 'reality' shows.  how real is that?  you wouldn't even believe what you'd see on an LA set.  


pss:  AND TO THE THINKERS.  remember!  the unaware often get in the way of the aware, lemmings, bad drivers, non-thinkers.  part of getting ahead is not letting them get in your way, too much...lol

peace...

for real.  peace.

atlanta, what's wrong?

i've been thinking about this for a while, probably since i got back to atlanta, over a year ago.

i moved to atlanta in 2003, right after i graduated from college.  i spent 2 years here, and was spent.  then i moved to la, was there a little over 5 years (i love la) and then moved to busan, s.korea (korea is cool).  after korea, i came back to atlanta to start again.

almost as soon as i got here, i remembered all of the reasons why i left, and wanted to leave so badly.  atlanta is kind of small and slow-paced, but still pretty cool as a city, with enough to do to be considered decent.  what's really effed about the atl are (some of) the people.  not all, but there are quite a few people here that have the 'syndrome'.

the atlanta syndrome is affiliating wealth or speaking well, or even decently enough so someone can understand you, as being a 'white' thing.  there's a lot of the perpetual poverty syndrome, and when you get out of that, you enter into the realm of needing dudes to buy you purses and an extremely hostile disposition towards other women.  with the men, they're extremely disrespectful to women.  now, please don't forget, this is not everyone, but a LOT of the dudes here feel entitled to stare at you, from head to toe, in your face, in you ass, wherever they want for as long as they want.  i've never seen anything like this anywhere else i've ever been to or lived in my entire life.

i believe that atlanta is a very (poorly) oversexed city.  the women, not everyone, but the armpit ones...you know what i'm talking about...wear what's the shortest, and the tightest, can be seen shaking their asses in the street thinking it's cute, and running intentionally into 8mo pregnant women walking through the mall when there is absolutely no one else around...take my word for that last one.

so the next 'tier' is that everyone is a CEO.  a ceo/president/founder, everyone else is a model.  the new thing in atlanta has been the new thing since the year i left, and that's the 'gourmet' pizza place, that's gourmet because they have some movie playing on the wall and have a full(ish) bar.  then there are the same lame events...listening parties, release parties, grand re-grand, rerere-openings and bootleg fashion shows.  because remember, everyone here...EVERYONE is a model.

i'm not full of hate.  i'm full of disappointment.  when i was here, the club scene was kinda ok, usher and outkast were making music, the studios were going strong....and the full-bar having pizza kitchen was actually a new(ish) idea.  that was 10 years ago.

see, i just don't think (some) people should be so proud of a place that's so not.  and no...this is NOT black hollywood.  atl housewives and love and hip hop doesn't make you anywhere close to anything besides a cheap (monetarily and otherwise) place to film.

but i don't really care about the princess attitudes, and my weave is fresh attitude.  i don't care about the 14 year old trying to fight me from her car when i was just taking my dog for a run by the park.  i don't care.  i do get pissed about the dudes.  i was followed almost an entire block, pregnant by a dude hassling me for a date.  7 months pregnant.

my husband's sister...when she was pregnant...a dude in ross asking her to 'chill' and she says, can't you see that i'm pregnant?  and he said, well, that just means that you can't get pregnant again.  i think all people do (not all all, but a lot of the all) down here is eff.

i'd be able to get over it all if it weren't so HOT and HUMID.  and had traffic EVERYWHERE.

but on the good side, the underground scene here is good.  you just have to dig....and digggggggg

more of the same. why?

i've been subjected, or maybe i'm just noticing, some things around me.  mostly that of the actions of the people in my environment, in my (current) city.  sorry, but i'd never ever call atlanta mine, i'd be too embarrassed.  the DIRTKEEPERS of this city get to me.  who are the dirtkeepers?  well, a dirt keeper is anyone who holds on to old trash and old crap.  racist hillbilly's who are mad that there's a 'nigger' in office.  idiot's who think that only 'white people' are meant to have money or get rich, or are some elite elite of people.  or that all asians sound like 'chee chungchung' without even trying to attempt to listen to any of the languages.  that kind of crap.

here in atlanta, the breed of dirtkeeper that's mostly around is the one that wears rollers or a shower cap out...EVERYWHERE, walks with a MAJOR switch, kinda constipated looking, but i guess some dude that wears his pants so low that he carries them with him everywhere he walk told her that she's sexy and that that walk was making him want to 'hit that'.   no exaggeration.  seriously.  no belt, holding them where they button, still falling off as he walks with some sweaty nasty-pants draws exposed all prison-style.  come one?  that's a SIMPLE evolution.  'oh?  dudes in pants advertise their buttholes by showing their underwear like this?  man, i'm gonna STOP...immediately!' (unless that's what you're going for, that's cool)  but no, the dirtkeeper says, no...it's a 'black/gangsta/????? style, dey don't understand, SHAWDY' so tacky.  

but that pants thing is so old, who cares.  stay like that.  but hey, homegirls...why is it that it's always a dude that has to buy you something?  why do you guys fight over that same dude that has like 6 kids to stay around you in your house not doing anything and just eating your food and borrowing your car.  ever see 'baby boy'???  that's not fiction. *yes, i know baby boy seeeems like an LA thing.  maybe...but those cats moved there from ATLANTA.  believe me!*

and atlanta dudes, why do you guys make 'holla'ing' at women such a sport? man, you should see it, these dues will talk to ANYTHING.  i've seen broke down girls pushing babies around in strollers getting screamed at from across gas station parking lots by a half homeless dude and her walking away happy about it.

and i've recently discovered the brute-force style of the atlien dude.  see, he knows that you're in a hurry, oh yeah, he sees you cleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeearly walking in the opposite direction.  but the M.O. is this. FORCE. they'll yell at you something that you 'have' to reply back to, or they'll call you a bitch because you 'ignored' them.  like it's not rude to just interrupt someone for the sake of the 'hunt'.  but whatever.  they'll yell (at your back) hey, hey, hey.  hey miss, excuse me miss, how are you??  and (if you're dumb/nice) you turn (slightly) and say, 'i'm good, thanks.' and turn back around and continue on your way.  

but then they'll (at your back, once more) yell at you again, 'ey, ey, can i talk to you for a minute?' if you're an idiot/polite, you turn around and nicely say, 'i'm sorry, but i'm in a hurry'.  boom.  that's enough, because just for you to turn around, that's when they start following you.  trying to catch up.  even when you say that you don't want to talk, they but in and say some crap like, 'i only want to talk to you for a minute' and before you know it, you have to take your mace out and tell them not to follow you.  and have your knife on deck.  real story, multiple times this has happened to me.  ONLY IN ATLANTA.

either that happens, or you then have a new 'buddy' to stroll the sickeningly HOT MUGGY HUMID streets of atlanta. well, at least then you'll have a few less scallywags honking at and yelling at you from their cars right?  that's a plus.  sheesh.  

 i know that the ratio here is insane, like 20 to one in favor of the gents, but move to another city or SOMETHING!  or at least get used to hanging around yourself.  be cool with no deadbeat around.  start valuing yourself.  stop wearing the shorrrrrrrrrrrtest, tighest, no-style tackiest thing EVER just because it displays your 'phat ass'.  or flat ass.  whatever.  basically, unless you're hookin...oh!!! never mind.  i get it now! 

and then there's the confrontational woman.   ayeayeaye.  what, you think i want HIM!?  effing crap dude!  what are you looking at me like that for?!  i just was trying to go out for a run/get a water from the gas station/pay for my candy bar.  the dirtkeeper woman is ALWAYS in competition with other women.  when i was 8 mo pregnant, i went to lenox.  which is a nice mall here, but then some hoodrats like to go to try to see and be seen and pick up men who might have some money...well anyways, we (my husband and i) went in the back way.  totally clear area.  8 months pregnant.  bonquifa and shante' walk straight towards me, with some LOUD HUGE weaves, one yellow, one pink....and pinky runs right into me.  no one around for miles. i saw her coming, i could sense her style.  so i just stopped so she'd have her choice of where to go.  i was being ghandi'ish...but no.  she runs RIGHT into my shoulder.  i was like rrrr....we walk like 20ft away into the nail salon to get some pedi's.  2 bonkies sitting right there, getting some tacky 4in nails.  the MEANEST mean mugs (from head to toe) yuckface all day.  i try to smile.  both roll their eyes at me.  i'm telling you, these aren't isolated incidents.  this is ALL DAY LONG for the female DIRTKEEPER.  

i could go on forever about this place and these dirtkeepers.  and no, this is not a BLACK thing.  although, most of these people just happen to BE black.  i want to help, but there's a strong resistance in most of the people who are a close part of these communities.  and after a while, you just want to say eff it.  wish you'd just disappear.  you're keeping society back and making a lot of people (myself included) embarrassed that you're black. and we won't talk about how segregated atlanta is.  you won't see these people with ANY body who isn't just like them.  wasn't MLK from the A?!  sheesh, there's a huge sector of his neighborhood dedicated to him here!  and these cats are just voluntarily segregating themselves. talking about crazy white people, what?!  i'm not joking.   and if you're in there, and you do want to be different, you're going to catch hell.  apparently, some people see education as a stupid thing. and putting 45" rims on a '81 caprice is the thing to do.

there are all kinds of cool people in the A.  could be a really cool place.  there's just a LOT of a certain type of dirtkeepers who just love to call this place home.  *and you don't have to be born in or from atlanta to adopt a very ignorant disposition*