sucking yourself

i've had, i think, with becoming consumed with the things in my environment, the regular things, that i'm not happy about.  that i'd rather have disappear forever.  and 100% of what i'm talking about are people!  

namely, the hood-people of atlanta.  it's getting to me, at least it's getting to me way more than i would want it to.  everywhere i go, there's some girl with a 30ft weave with an attitude.  and caterpillar fakie-lashes too.  i go to target by my house, and i get the stink-eye for trying to get help from a group of them because i'm breaking their conversation up.  same day....i'm at waffle house...the whole crew is hood, and the customers aren't, except for two of their friends sitting at the counter.  the whole crew is cussing, talking about sex, making jokes about each other about not having the newest phone, being SUPER LOUD (no exaggeration, seriously), and rude.  only one girl was nice to me.  i asked for a spoon, one girl asked the other, the one who was asked rolled her eyes, and took her dripping-wet hands, grabbed a spoon and handed it, with dirty, soapy water to the other one.  i've seen never-ending craziness here in my city, and i'm sure that mine isn't the only one.  hood is becoming way too acceptable, and i'm over it.  

but, it's not disappearing right now.  or tonight, or tomorrow, or whenever, and for at least a while, until i leave at least, i have to put up with it.  but it's one of the things, in life, that bothers me the absolute most.  i don't think butchered, bad english-speakers should be hired, especially when english is your native language.  i don't think that totally unprofessional behavior should be ok, at all.  and especially not the norm.  

but what do i do?  my mom and my sister tell me just to ignore it.  am i too weak-minded to ignore these things?  i mean, just today, i saw a hoodrat woman, dragging her 2.5 year old daughter out of the store, yelling at her in hood'lish telling her to 'drank yer drank' and yelling at her to 'get in the car' while the other lady, was feeding some totally artificially-colored whatever to the other little girl.  i get in line to go to the atm, and two hoodbitches cut me off in line and just ignore me in a hood way.  i'm just over these people existing.   

no room for (sour) cream

lately, there's been a lot of energy on high-force mainly because of the conclusion and verdict of a certain high-profile court case.  i'm not going to mention it, because it's gotten so old to hear it's name, i don't want to.  but you can add up the date of this post with anything that was happening, and know that it's all been a bit annoying.  

but besides that, it's really the discussions that people have been having and their need to be heard.  i understand the need to be heard, i do i do i do....really i do.  i obviously have the need to be heard, i have two blogs, a yt channel, a website, a fb page and a twitter account.  but when i've been reading comments about the world (i'll just call it the world) and having conversations with some individuals, not only about the world but about things in general, and when people have been wanting to have conversations about the world with me, i've noticed that talking to some individuals is a waste of time.  some are so stuck in their own feelings and mentalities, that getting an idea in or having a constructive conversation is pretty much impossible.  i put 'pretty much' in there just for technicality's sake.  like, for the sake of the possibility that one of these conversations could go somewhere. 

but so far, none that i can remember have.  and sometimes i go into things thinking, 'don't do it, don't start because you KNOW that this isn't going to go anywhere.'  but i get involved in some way, usually because the other person keeps plucking like a chicken, away at away, until you get confused, or have hope that the convo could go well, or something like that, and then next thing you know, you're like 30 min in, pseudo-arguing with a wall.  and then you say to yourself, 'crap!  how did i get here??!'

you're not only frustrated about getting involved in that conversation at that time with that person.  but you carry the past frustrations of the other conversations that were similar to it, and add more frustration to them because you're so mad at yourself for getting tangled up again.

so i say, be strong!  and remember some people are stuck in a place of nonsense.  don't try to help, don't try to convince.  keep YOUR peace, because often times, these people are troublemakers, fire-starters, and just argumentative to begin with and they just want to bitch and be heard, even though they never seem to mentally grow or try to be open-minded and progressive.

these are the people who hold others back.  back into their world of bickering, 'i'm right, your wrong', how you feel isn't relative, how i feel is the only way and 'blahblah-undeucated, i'm narrow-minded as hell' bullshit paradise.  when you see these, just put up the imaginary sign of caution.  wrap them in virtual caution tape, and surround them with made up orange cones and save your words for someone with sense.