maybe it's our environment...

this past thanksgiving made me think a little more about a few things that were on my mind about atlanta and some of the destroyed communities within it.  lately, i've been seeing the beauty in atlanta, and proud of the progress that i've been seeing.  transgender hires in my local stores, the film industry making more projects here and the effect that i think it has on our city...people being very stylish too!  very nice to see...

so, everyone knows how i feel about some of the black communities here in atlanta.  i've spoken to a few people, mainly older, (60+) black people from the north.  and they have seen the same thing, but since they feel that they have earned their keeps on this planet, they're not worried about being pc the way i am.  sometimes it's hard to talk about a certain demographic without seeming racist.  but in this case, it's definitely the truth.  

it's not a black thing, it's a black thing, for a very certain few, here in atlanta.  i heard a girl calling her 5 month old 'nigger' like a million times...i was saddened.  maybe it's not such a big deal, but i see that it is.  this is paired up with a million mates of thinking white people are the ones with money, or just jewish people are good with it.  stuff like that.  basically, this select people have the ongoing trait that thinks, 'that can never be me'.  except for being a rapper...or the 'pretty' girl, which equals to like 15lbs of remy brazilian sewed into her head, with a TON of 'mac' makeup and clothes like destiny's child when b's mom was still making the clothes.  and along with alllll that, being VERY bitchy to other women.  i think it's some competition thing.

anyways.  i was thinking.  ok, slavery.  i think about it any time i see black people in desolation here in the atl.  but think about the lonnnnng time that black/brown/colored...basically non-white people were treated here in the deep south.  segregation just happened 1 generation ago.  there are people you'll meet still who's immediate family were slaves.

and slaves were treated like shit.  don't wanna cuss, but this case calls for it.  they were ragged and beaten, told they were good for nothing, and told they were ugly.  while getting raped and abused by everyone around them, except for in a few small, select cases where the plantation owner was a 'good guy' and didn't beat (as badly?) as his neighbors. 

things here in atlanta are still very segregated, to me.  sometimes you see a black person who's not been removed from their environment very much in a totally new situation, and it's like a fish out of water.  like they're in shock. 

that could be me!  i could TOTALLY see myself saying, 'F that!  i'm NOT going over to ANYONE who doesn't look like me'...if i was treated like crap for generationsssssss, like a LONG time.  like 200 years of crap.  

and, it's not so far removed.  remember that.  i went to school in the DEEP south...at ga southern.  in statesboro.  the last place in georgia (or was it the south?) to segregate.  i graduated in 2003.  there are still TONS (believe me, TONS) of confederate flags....everywhere!  shoot, right by my house NOW in atalanta, the main street that the GSP and another cop entity is on is CONFEDERATE AVE.  hmm.  not a coincidence.  but back to my school.  i was working, at autozone, and an olllld white man, like 80 came to the register i was checking people out at and he said to me, 'you're just the prettiest colored girl i've ever seen' i didn't even get offended.  

in highschool...in a very suburbia part of the outskirts of atlanta, one of my teammates said something similar...'you're the prettiest black girl i've seen.'  kinda over being called black when i'm not full black, that one drop shit needs to go...but whateves.  i got it.  i was still 'them'

i get it.  i'll always be them.  but them are also the native americans.  my mothers father was part native american, and my fathers grandmother was 100%.  which leads me into why i was thinking about things like this one.  a big slap in the face.  an intentional slap.  native american heritage month is the same month that this 'let's celebrate genocide day' is on.  and people still don't recognize that.  

it all leads me to say eff it.  i'm not here to educate people, but yet i still want to.  go fig.  

----awareness....

awareness is power.  

even if you don't believe in the conspiracy, or that anything is 'wrong', knowing what the truth is is what the point is.  

i'm not going to get into what i believe in, at least not too deeply.  i'll graze the surface, and if you want, you can start your own research...and i guarantee that it'll lead to a LOT, but whatever, it can always be all a lie. i don't think it is, but i'm not interested in convincing ANYONE.  believe me ;o)  i'm definitely not.  

and...my point is--->everything that's aired, can all be a lie. it's very possible, and highly likely.  

a tad of the TRUTH.  the truth is: (this is just a PINPOINT amount of what's really going on out there...very basic knowledge indeed, believe me...lol)

A: the people who own the networks also own almost all of the media outlets...radio, newspapers and magazines. 

B: most of the people who own these things are also VERY politically empowered.  

C: 90% of the FDA are politicians

D: most of these politicians also own companies that are DIRECTLY involved or effected by the dealings in and around the FDA.

E: these people are NOT going to do things that benefit you if it can benefit them instead.  don't take it personally, it's the result of CAPITALISM.  which isn't entirely bad, but you have to not see these people as people, but as the MACHINE which makes the best BUSINESS decisions for ITSELF.  machines do not have hearts.

....this is only one TRUTH stream of consciousness...it's not a conspiracy theory, it's real, researchable, verifiable truth. 

and only a part of a HUGE, worldwide, international, multi-faceted network.  

awareness is power.  if you know what's happening, and even more about the details of it, you can enable yourself to make decisions that will protect you, keep you healthier, and more informed about what's really going on when a building gets run into with a plane or some 'war' is started.  

you can think about what's really in the water.  fluoride isn't good for you.  they tell you, if you swallow what's more than in toothpaste, call the CDC. but there's that and more in 8oz of most municipal water.  that's the truth.  i know here in my city, there have been massive petitions against them adding SO MUCH fluoride in the water. ha, they haven't stopped.  my pedi told is it was a good thing...i like him, but i don't agree with is fundamental POV. i had already looked up what research has proven about fluoride and what it hasn't.

but my doctor told me so!  your doctor may have the purest intentions, or not.  same with your pediatrician, but remember.  they went to school for YEARS within the educational systems that are the ones that don't teach (all of) the truth.  they're still teaching the the 'new settlers/pilgrims' were friends to the native americans.  what about those blankets?  oh, we forgot.  whatever...get out of here.  btw, do you really think that the edu that the presidents got, let's say, in primary/middle/highschool is the same one that you and i got?  

but remember, your doctor was convinced of the things that they want you to believe.  i'm not trying to get too conspiracy style right now, but just keep in mind that you and your doctor may have very different opinions, and what they tell you is not necessarily what you need to do.  you can take their advice, but just remember what they're telling you may not be accurate, or what you feel in your heart.  but it sure is difficult to have the confidence to go against a doctor.  don't worry, it gets easier with time. and when you know the truth.

but!  your doctor may be AWESOME!  i'm not here to bash anyone, including doctors.  they may have gone to a really progressive open-intelligence kind of school.  or maybe they went directly through the system, but they may have with a really strong mind that knew what the deal was and with their own, very educated, opinion.  VERY POSSIBLE!  and definitely a keeper :o)

ps...refusal of awareness and just 'taking it' is ignorance.  and usually is a direct contribution to the things that take us down as a society.  

you're pissed that you have poor living conditions, no money, dirty water and cities?  no jobs, poor schools for your kids?  it's because you're accepting the reaming of your ass.  and taking what the news and magazine covers (even people...lol) as the truth, and soaking in the distraction. i watch housewives and jersey shore, but i don't wake up wanting to be them or wondering what they're doing...or even believing that it's not scripted.

i've lived in LA, getting casted for 'reality' shows.  how real is that?  you wouldn't even believe what you'd see on an LA set.  


pss:  AND TO THE THINKERS.  remember!  the unaware often get in the way of the aware, lemmings, bad drivers, non-thinkers.  part of getting ahead is not letting them get in your way, too much...lol

peace...

for real.  peace.